I was diagnosed with ADHD and started on medication at 12, but not really told anything about what it meant for me or how to deal with it, and when I was 18 -literally when my parents dropped me off at college- was told I was autistic
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Oh I remember that thing. I absolutely hated it
I remember trying REALLY HARD cause I was a competitive little shit even when I wasn't competing
Also, are you intentionally removing the upvotes from your own comments or is this update just extra spicy?
Nope that's definitely my OCD lol. I did it on Reddit too, it's just noticeable here
I see, would you mind sharing more? I don't want to pry, I just love learning about the experience of others, feel free to say no <3
What do you wanna know, I certainly enjoy talking about myself more than I will ever admit lol
Hell yeah! please let me know if you change your mind <3
Why do you remove it? Is 0 a more comfortable/ round number for you than 1?
I just absolutely hate the idea of my own post being upvoted by myself. Just doesn't feel organic to me. I guess it actually kind of started on principle now that I think about it, but then my OCD saw that and said "Oh you HAVE to do it now or you will feel physically uncomfortable."
I absolutely feel you on that. How does the discomfort manifest for you, with this specific instance? Is it the same as other similar instances, or does it present differently with each?
Ooh I never actually think about this part very much. It feels the same with each OCD thing for me. It feels like a panic response, chest feels tight and my heart rate goes up a little, and all thoughts will be focused on rectifying the issue until I act on it. In a way it can even feel like I'm not in full control of my body. So it has a very physical reaction for me and it absolutely sucks. It's worse for different things and situations, but it's always the worse for situations in what I consider "my area," i.e. my living space or even work area at my job.
Some other examples for me:
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-I obviously have everything in my apartment arraigned in specific ways. Isn't necessarily organized though, just in a way that feels right
-I used to only be able to eat popcorn five pieces at a time. Increments of five are my thing
-If a number or letter I've written doesn't look a certain way, I will have to erase or write over it. I'll have to find an example and post it one day
-I fucking have to fold toilet paper in very specific ways, i.e. certain amount of and alignments with the squares
-I have to have things set in a right-oriented or facing way, like my hair had to be pushed to the right (when I had hair). This one is hard to really explain because it mostly depends on how my brain perceives the "right" orientation of an object