Like obviously I have expensive dream items - I've wanted a vespa since I was a kid - but generally I'd like enough money to eat and pay bills and buy a yoyo occasionally.

As it is I struggle to do the first two and the other is as much as a pipe dream as my vespa. I'm n hospital and I'm freaking out that my bank balance won't cover the heating bill my dad has likely ran up. Just what the fuck is this miserable existence and what is the fucking point of this cruelty. I'm stuck in this pit of poverty and despair.