I spent all but a few months of my 29 years of life completely single and believing myself incapable of being in a loving relationship. Everything changed when I started HRT and came out as trans. I felt lovable and yearned to love another. I fantasized about relationships and remembered fondly the brief instances of intimacy I'd had before.
I started signing up for dating sites with hope in my heart.
That was in January 2020.
Although I've been alone now for just another year, it has been far more painful than all the years of singlehood before it combined. I dunno if it's because of social distancing making me lonelier in general, or hormonal changes, or the age I'm getting to, or prolly all of them... But the intensity with which I crave intimacy and love in my life has become almost unbearable.
My strategy is to just use a combination of venting, distracting, and crying to get myself through to the other side of this.
I spent all but a few months of my 29 years of life completely single and believing myself incapable of being in a loving relationship. Everything changed when I started HRT and came out as trans. I felt lovable and yearned to love another. I fantasized about relationships and remembered fondly the brief instances of intimacy I'd had before.
I started signing up for dating sites with hope in my heart.
That was in January 2020.
Although I've been alone now for just another year, it has been far more painful than all the years of singlehood before it combined. I dunno if it's because of social distancing making me lonelier in general, or hormonal changes, or the age I'm getting to, or prolly all of them... But the intensity with which I crave intimacy and love in my life has become almost unbearable.
My strategy is to just use a combination of venting, distracting, and crying to get myself through to the other side of this.
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