It fucking sucks having a learning disability mixed with social anxiety.
Recently started a new job (lost old one due to covid)
I'm asked to mop the floor.
I awkwardly mop the floor because I'm an idiot.
Coworkers laugh and start mimicking the lame way I mop
I start internally having a panic attack, hoping no one noticed but I'm pretty sure they all think I'm a freak now.
Not looking forward to work tomorrow. Just fucking throw me off a cliff. I can't do anything without fucking it up.
If they're gatekeeping the way you mop, that says way more about them than it does about you. Sorry you're having to deal with shitheads though.
Idk if it'll help, but my therapist gets me to do something that kind of works for me when I feel like you are rn. They said to think about the people that I care about and what it is that I like about them, and then think about the fact that they like me and try to think about what it is that they see in me. It can feel kind of silly, but I find it makes me feel better
Haha, same. It feels so weird to do, but it does really help!
Thanks for the advice . That's actually a really good idea
No problem. Hope that things get easier. Starting a new job is always really stressful
Yo I can relate to how you felt and also work these kinds of jobs with these kinds of coworkers. Just don’t even acknowledge it in the future. If they tease you about it just try and laugh along, don’t get upset. That way you become part of the joke instead of the joke.
It’s shitty humans are like this but I learned that from years of being sensitive and getting upset instead of just trying not to take myself as seriously. I know how much it sucks to be laughed at while having bad anxiety but just remember, everyone gets laughed at sometimes. No one can go their entire life without making mistakes or whatever. You still have value as a person.
Yeah, it's weird because I can usually just laugh at myself. I'm not usually one to take things seriously, but every now and again if I've had a full-on day and I feel like I'm messing up something that should be easy, then it can get me down.
Completely understandable. I have days like that too, especially when I start a new job. Solidarity comrade.