A link to the Al Jazeera article and video: https://www.aljazeera.com/news/2023/10/19/what-hit-ahli-hospital-in-gaza
A Channel 4 News investigation also confirms that Israel's audio tape of “Hamas operatives discussing the rocket malfunction" is a fake with their experts saying that the tone, syntax, accent and idiom sound absurd and not credible: https://www.channel4.com/news/who-was-behind-the-gaza-hospital-blast-visual-investigation
This would also not be the first time that the Israeli government has lied about "misfired Palestinian rockets": https://mondoweiss.net/2022/08/after-initially-blaming-palestinians-israel-admits-to-airstrike-that-killed-5-children-in-gaza/
The Israeli army has been trying to prevent international journalists and independent bodies from entering Gaza to act as independent investigators: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=60EK-3-kGLI
I wish I could regain the innocence of being just another liberal moron. Feeling your long term memory and pattern recognition being born anew each and every time fucking you wake up must be really soothing.
I'm on that new day, new hippocampus grind
It's like reading the cursed tomes and gaining the ability to see the all-consuming ghoul god hovering in the sky. Like "well, I'm not confused anymore but knowing is arguablly worse."
Pain and suffering are always inevitable for a large intelligence and a deep heart. The really great men must, I think, have great sadness on earth.
Dostoyevsky
I feel this. I wish I could tune all this shit out and just go about my day. But I feel like I'm watching the entire world crumbling around me and everyone is just along for the ride.