idk, maybe askchapo is a better place for this.
Does anyone have like...experience or knowledge about hiring that will calm my anxieties?

I have had several customer service jobs, and as much as I don't want to do it again I have to do something and I don't feel qualified for much else.

Looking at stuff in my area there is a part-time position at a library nearby which sounds bearable....but thinking about applying for anything just gives me anxiety.

I quit my first job after working for over a year to go back to school, but I eventually went to the psych ward and dropped out.
Then some time later I tried working at a gas station, but left a note and quit one night because I couldn't handle the hours and dysphoria.
I tried getting a part time position at a grocery store a bit after that but quit after a day or two.
Since then I have just been a neet.
I am terminally unhireable.

If I go to an interview I have no idea what I am going to say. Idk what a background check is going to reveal. I'm trying to get a hold of my life, but it feels pointless at this point, I don't pass, I can't hold down a job, even if I could no one would hire me.

wtf do I even do.
:deeper-sadness:

  • MarxistHedonism [she/her]
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    4 years ago

    Do you live in a metro area or near one? If you do, there is probably at least one LGBT non-profit that can offer support. They could have connections and be able to point you places that help with career placement and they should at least have social workers and potentially free therapy (which can help with your anxiety about the job application process).

    I googled a medium sized city and here’s one example: PFLAG Cincinatti.

    There may also be national organizations that could help you virtually if you don’t have something local.

    • REallyN [she/her,they/them]
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      4 years ago

      I live in the Greater Boston Area...so probably. But idk...I’d probably be too ashamed for something like that.

      • MarxistHedonism [she/her]
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        4 years ago

        I understand that it can be difficult reaching out and asking for help. I hope you understand that there’s so many people in the same situation as you and there’s no shame in it.

        If you feel like you can fill out an online form, I found this organization from Googling: JRI. It looks like they offer a lot of different services, some LGBT-focused and others not. If you fill out the form, you can still always not respond when they contact you.

        Also your city subreddit or if there’s a BostonLGBT sub will probably know which organizations are the best. Where I’m from we have two big LGBT non profits and one is very white cis gay men focused, but you wouldn’t know that from googling.