who practices celibacy and says he wears a cilice to keep his physical desires in check

My greatest regret in life is not saving this youtube video before the creator made it private. It was called City Pig. A middle-aged bald man was dressed in leather clothes and standing in a city park. Behind him was a pond. He turned the camera on, stared directly into the lens, and without blinking walked backwards and submerged himself to his neck in the pond. Then he stared at the camera and bobbed a few times. I must have watched it a dozen times trying to figure out what the fetish was because even after growing up on the internet I've never seen as rare an animal as a city pig. Neither the appeal nor the audience made any sense to me.

This is the guy who masturbates to city pig. You only need to wear spikes to remind yourself that god is vengeful when the most vanilla threshold of your sexuality is city pig.