I had an AWFUL winter for a lot of reasons, it wasn't solely down to my hormones. But my hormones were def a contributing factor. I was taking injections and my estradiol levels were way too high and I always felt like shit. But I also felt like I couldn't lower the dose because then it always ran out before the end of the week, and taking more frequently always caused my levels to skyrocket even when I adjusted the dosage to compensate.
I'm taking estradiol by pill now and it's way way better, I feel good. But I'm not going back on spiro for a number of reasons, and I'm beginning to suspect my T levels are rising because I get morning wood occasionally. I know you can't really do estrogen monotherapy with pills, and I'm worried about my T levels, but I'm also feeling so good rn that I'm not sure I want to change anything.
That story's false. He was abusive and talked at her funeral about how much he thought of her as a man and didn't want her to transition- in particular, didn't want her to get surgery.
The heist was probably to cover his debts to the mob
Idk if it's because I changed my hrt dose/method or because seasonal depression is finally lifting (prob both) but I've felt SO GOOD physically over the last few weeks. Like I'm bubbly and bouncy and loud and I love it.
Also, finally comfortable wearing a dress in public- 2 years into my transition and it finally happened, I get to feel cute now. Interesting how much of my resistance to that was internal- in my most intense period of questioning before the one that led to my egg cracking, I actually bought a dress just to see, and I didn't feel anything and I went back deeper into the closet. It feels like I'm finally getting the feeling I was expecting to get then
Oh also I've been gone from here for a couple months because I was getting really wrapped up in just super intense transmisogymy on tumblr. That part wasn't so good
Also love the part where she apologizes to Ken for pushing him to be misogynistic and create patriarchy. Because misogyny is always actually women's fault
Yeah I've always found it so weird when cishet coworkers would talk about this stuff as if there's no reason I could find it weird. One coworker in particular, in between telling me about her gender reveal for her then-current pregnancy, would also tell me about how effeminate one of her sons is in a lightly mocking tone. And it's like, how do you expect me to react to that?
So before I came out, I was in a straight-appearing relationship, with dynamics that were unconsciously just queer enough that we often lightly made fun of our more traditional straight couple friends, like literally "are the straights ok?" type stuff (we still thought we were straight though, somehow).
EVEN SO it was so much more stifling than any of my relationships after I came out. The expectations are constant and unrelenting until you get to a place where there's no possible way anyone can read you as cishet, and even then cishets are so oblivious you have to outright tell them
For real. Its reputation as transphobic kept me away for a long time, but then when I actually went there is was by far the most trans positive online space I'd ever been in
I've heard that Assassin's Creed Mirage is kind of a return to the original, shorter format.
I also really miss the first game. I loved how it seemed to be trying a new thing, even if it was a bit janky. God, if only I knew what it would become
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Starting to get a bit worried about my hrt.
I had an AWFUL winter for a lot of reasons, it wasn't solely down to my hormones. But my hormones were def a contributing factor. I was taking injections and my estradiol levels were way too high and I always felt like shit. But I also felt like I couldn't lower the dose because then it always ran out before the end of the week, and taking more frequently always caused my levels to skyrocket even when I adjusted the dosage to compensate.
I'm taking estradiol by pill now and it's way way better, I feel good. But I'm not going back on spiro for a number of reasons, and I'm beginning to suspect my T levels are rising because I get morning wood occasionally. I know you can't really do estrogen monotherapy with pills, and I'm worried about my T levels, but I'm also feeling so good rn that I'm not sure I want to change anything.