I hope everyone had a great week! Hang out. Chat. Talk about what's going on. Have fun :3
Posting from my hospital room this week. Hope everyone is doing well.
CW: Talking about bottom surgery and some other icky things
This week has been such a fantastic one for me. I got my bottom surgery done last Friday and I’m still in the hospital recovering from it. It has done an astronomical amount of good for me already and I still haven’t seen it. I am calmer. I feel as through the weight of the world has been lifted off my shoulders. I feel at peace for the first time in…ever I think. Like, I have been able to just sit here and pass out for no reason whatsoever. For most that sounds whatever, but I have never been able to do that. I’m smiling huge and wide and nothing can bring this girl down. I feel AMAZING!!!
That said, there have been things I wasn’t expecting. Like for one, it feels like my scrotum has been scrunched, stretched out, and lain over a canvas. My dickhead feels like it’s being crushed and in 3 different places. And at times, if eels like my entire old package was collapsed into a singularity. It’s so weird. I just need to remind myself that they don’t exist anymore. :)
Gods. What a fucking week.
Congratulations!!! I was going to say "uqbal to all bottom dysphoric trans people" but then I remembered that's an Arabic word and I don't know what would the English expression would be.
it means like "hopefully all of them eventually get bottom surgery done" or something
"
our trans comrades receive the surgeries they desire" kinda beat :)
-explaining to a gamer-
Okay, you know how sometimes you start a game, and you have to pick a build, but nobody really tells you anything about it, so you just pick the one that is recommended and looks easy? But after some time, you realize that you aren't having fun with that build, but people around are used to you playing that build? You want to respec, but respeccing costs money, and once you respec, there's gonna be a long period of you being really bad at playing your new build?. It's like that.
Gay for boys, straight for girls
man why does this suck what gives
GayStraight for boys,straightgay for girls
oh wait this is much better nowGay for girls! I never understood why I couldn't get things with women to feel right before!
yeah, like, "why can't i find a gf???" it's because you keep trying to date straight girls lol
I adore how much your own gender impacts your attraction, when you alter your own self it makes a huge difference to how you relate to & kiss other people. I fuckin love being a lesbian.
yeah, I remember having the
HIGHLY CISGENDER THOUGHT
of being lowkey jealous of lesbians because deep down i knew sexual/romantic attraction hit different depending on where it came from and that as a cis guy i would just never be able to experience that
Cis men really are missing out. They should transition so they can be women-loving-women as well.
Been trying voice training, and I showed my wife my femme voice, and she, very supportively said, "it sounds really good. You sound like contrapoints :)))"
🤮 🤮 🤮
a finger on the monkeys paw closes
you now sound like blaire white
Having a voice that doesn't pass Voice training
just become nonverbal lolMy phase where I decided I was just gonna write on a notepad instead of speaking, before I quit giving a fuck
punching shit into my spell and speak
"EFF! YOU! CEE! KAY! TEE! EEE! ARE! EFF! ESS!"
Yeah, especially if you live somewhere where men don't usually have long hair, that's why I get called "daughter" all the time
I got identified as a girl a lot in coubtries like that, was kinda nice, even when I thought I was cis.
"oh I totally enjoy this because it's humorous and I'm just a silly troll haha"
speaking of which, they kept referring to me as a girl while I was waiting in the bread line right now
I got bullied out of having long hair in high school.
But nobody can stop me now.
Can confirm, which kinda sucks because having cool.short dykey hair should not preclude you being gendered correctly. But people assume, no goofyass MAN would keep such an incredible wavy butt-length waterfall in such amazing condition ✨
It's pretty funny. All these transphobe are like "I can always tell" and then as soon as you grow your hair out 6 inches doing nothing else, they act like you're Snake under a cardboard box
Still recovering. Will be going home later today, but I still have trapped gas in my shoulders causing me severe pain when I need to move. Also developed some nausea over the past 24 hours. Feeling generally unwell. Not sure if normal or something I should alert someone about.
Since you're not sure, try to talk with someone, rather talk too much than too little.
I managed to earlier. Apparently it’s fairly common for a while post-op, so I’m going to continue as normal for the time being.
can confirm, it shouldnt go on for too long but yeah your body is recovering - used to have to take anti-nausea tablets for a few weeks after
also happy to answer any other questions around being post-op if you did have any! i'm about 5 years post
also congrats, glad things went well by the sounds of it !! 
Forced feminisation, but instead of just being a kink you are on a mission to awaken all transfemmes to their identities :)
DBZ scouter but it shows egg levels.
Extended They Live fight scene where the eggs refuse to put the scouter on
Rolling my eyes into the back of my head when I see transfems on reddit unironically saying hrt changes sexuality
Saw people talking about it on trans forums back in the late 00s and how it was a real thing and it freaked me out. Being over a decade into it at this point though I'd argue my sexuality is not different but I just know more details about it. At 16 it's pretty easy to be like "I like girls," paired with internalized homophobia and transphobia then going "I like girls thus I'm only into cis women." Once you take a hammer to some of the foundational parts of your identity it's a lot easier to reexamine some of those broad statements you made as a teen and find that maybe you're a bit more flexible than you thought or sometimes you push a bit too far and find that actually you're still not into guys even if they're easier to hit up because chasers are easy early validation when you're stuck in a dark place.
So what's the lowdown on this, it's one of many weird "old wives tales" I always heard on
and stormfront imageboard(4ch).There's no basis for it at all. Transitioning just generally helps people realize things about themselves they may not have before. Some people get very weird and defensive though when it's pointed out that HRT doesn't do that
to be fair, this may feel like one's sexuality being changed by HRT, especially for the more extreme cases where someone's sexuality fully flips after they come to terms with their gender. and then when you mix in the average redditor level of self-awareness...
for instance, it took me accepting myself as nonbinary and opening up to my own emotions via HRT to also accept myself as a lesbian who could aesthetically appreciate the male form, rather than a bisexual man.
I haven't heard anyone say that HRT doesn't change sexuality before but I sure hope it doesn't. Suddenly being no longer attracted to women might be the one of the few things that would make me detransition.
That makes a hell of a lot more sense =) Idk why the defensiveness, do they desire a biological explainer for their sexuality???
i think maybe its more that they need a rationalisation for why they were seemingly unengaged with their sexuality previously - also that a lot of people generally lack self-awareness of their sexuality, especially if you spend your time pre-transition trying your hardest to fit the mold
I’ve made so many stenciled cloth patches recently and here are some I thought the mega might enjoy
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do you have a source for the art for that hammer + sickle + gender symbols? that thing is fuckin' incredible.
the original source seems to be this
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on a side note, i realized after i had sent the images that the bottom photo accidentally got flipped sideways, lol
Why is my dislike of being a guy getting stronger
This was not supposed to happen
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about a week before i was able to come out to myself as trans my dear trans femme friend sent me this poem to look over. i remember being moved by the second paragraph, but i couldn't make any sense of the third
it all really is too clear now
That last paragraph reminds me when my anxiety had me at my lowest. Literally curled crying on the ground daily. Felt like I completely lost myself and had to reconstruct myself. I was clinging on for dear life. Literally every moment of holding on was a victory. Like the passage, I actually imagined having ropes to hold my mind together.
So glad that's behind me now. Despite the pain I feel now, it pales in comparison to that. Feels like I can face anything now.
Beautiful writing.
"Balloon on a string" is actually imagery I've thought of before myself
for me it was more like a 100lb weight i strapped to my chest. this burden i just had to bear. I felt light and free when I finally was able to tell myself that I could take it off
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