Welp. That 5 year plan worked out way quicker than I thought it would.

have.

I have Narcissistic Personality Disorder. I live in a house with 4 other people with NPD, they're my dysfunctional family, and I'm the scapegoat. I need help really bad. I'm finally making arrangements to move away and go no contact. I've been abused my entire life by unfeeling monsters and there's only one thing I can do about it; put asphalt between me and them. I feel like I cracked some sort of code or puzzle, or like actually physically got to the bottom of somewhere or something. Ya girl, anon, needs some therapy.

To be clear: I'm not advocating for it.

Is the Average American in bad enough shape to create a new species classification? Like homo erectus vs homo sapien vs homo sapien sapien?

3...2...1... shoenice!

It's super cool, I promise! I actually had a nice big hard cover copy when I was a teenager, but I lent it to someone and never saw it again. I was just reminded of the book the other day while watching utubez. I'm going to give it another read now that I have more harmonic experience under my belt. Here's a download link if you're curious; https://annas-archive.org/md5/ee3279234ca7e2b1446a0b0100e7c62a

Check out Atun Shei Films' videos on King Philip's War. The 2nd generation of puritans in New England waged a horribly bloody, racist war against indigenous people. Good content on our horrifying history.

There's a really good music theory book called The Harmonic Experience by W.A Mathieu. It's a text book kinda about the contrasts between Western music and tradition eastern styles like Raga or Maqmat, specifically how Just Intonation works. He explains music theory using history and the actual math and physics regarding how vibrations become harmonies. For example; to have a piano that is tuned for Raga or Maqam music, you would need around 36 keys per octave. A regular piano is 12 keys per octave. We landed on 12, equally spaced, keys because they're "close enough" for our ears to bridge the gap.

Anyhow, the first half of the book has singing exercises for ear training. It's a really good music theory foundation and not too difficult to work through, if you're interested. I 10/10 recommend.

Skirt go spinny.

Yeah, I go to church. Well... I'm at church. Well I'm at A church. What is everyone doing at the church? Drugs, drinking, free pizza and jazz music. Vibes are super cozy, it's a really nice old church with red velvet cushions on the pews. And there's free pizza. Why can't this be every night?

I'm going to have to try spinny since you speak so highly of it.

I got two skirts , black with a white stripe around the hem and red plaid. They should be like halfway above the knee, hopefully they're cute. And most important, I hope they make me feel cute.

On the fifth day, the Lord madeth the skirts go spinny. And it was good. AMEN.

I finally ordered some trans socks and bralettes! I'm a v excited girl. Thinking above getting a skirt for a cute schoolgirl type outfit but idk. I've been feeling much more fem latelyz especially when looking in the mirror. It's nice to feel good.

A few weeks ago I realized I wasn't paying attention and going too fast while drawing my anticistaminesut of the vial. I looked at my shot and it was like half bubble. So uhhh, I stopped shooting big bubbles into my leg. I think it's week 3 of taking an actual dose. On top of that, I lost the little bit of alcoholism related weight/bloating I had on my rum tum tumbly. Feeling really cute and content right now.

BUT I've been cutting myself shaving a bunch now, so I need to step up my hair removal game. What is the consensus on cheap/easy facial hair removal? Do I want an epilator?

Incorrect. About half of the population didn't vote.

The Department of Energy carbines are so slick! Gotta get myself one of 'em. The carbine, some rad N.E.S.T. (Nuclear Emergency Response Team) gear, and an armored caboose are exactly what I need in my life.

You got bunked, fam. If you ate 500 micrograms of LSD you'd be INCREDIBLY high.

Do not go cutting cables. They can be removed.

"I love my puter, all my friends are in here!"