damnatum_seditiosus [any]

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Cake day: August 3rd, 2020
  • damnatum_seditiosus [any]toneurodiverse•Were any of you the first to get diagnosed in your family?
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    6 days ago

    CW : mention of suicidal thoughts

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    I'm first with any of the diagnostics I had along the way. Though hypomanic bipolarity fits quite well with my father where he had spurs of out of nowhere ideas and projects to then shortly abandon them later. His incomprehension of my self-harm and suicide idealisation while I was a teen, saying that it was for weak people, can also show how he coped with his own thoughts, but I'll never know.

    I'm pretty sure my big brother also has something, or just a classical cis-man with anger issues. But the rest of the siblings are churning along quite fine I believe.

  • damnatum_seditiosus [any]toneurodiverse•Ya girl is finally getting help
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    6 months ago

    I have a very small dose of Abilify that I take along Bupropion to "boost" the effect of the later and so far so good. I feel more energetic with it where I was more or less catatonic before and the effect was quick to act.

    I hope you don't lose that light on the horizon!

    heart-sickle

  • damnatum_seditiosus [any]toneurodiverse•Has this happened to anyone else? Am I just in denial? This makes no sense to me
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    7 months ago

    CW : Story of suicidal thoughts and kind of self harm too.

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    I too got diagnosed in the last few years with Bipolar with hypomania after I also did a test for ADD which was positive. I've struggled with suicidal thoughts since my teenage years but I knew that if I just waited it out, it would pass and I'd gain that sweet new will to live and a boost to my self esteem with it.

    But yeah I had typical depressed stuff, isolating, dropping everything and projects I had started and missing while days too. I've started with Aripriprazole too but I was getting some morbid thoughts racing in my head too and that kind of stopped using antipsychotics.

    But as other have noted, get a second opinion if you can, you know yourself better than anyone after all.

  • damnatum_seditiosus [any]toneurodiverse•Do any other chapos deal with borderline personality disorder?
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    1 year ago

    In my long mental health journey, I was diagnosed at first with BPD when I was around 20 years old, mostly because (I suspect) I was mutilating, had feeling of emptiness/death and was kinda having "clivage" in my relationship.(Where I was super into someone until I had my fill then vanished from the surface of the earth.)

    I read a lot on it, took note of when some behaviors happened and practiced some kind of self-crit. But mostly, aging dulled the strongest feeling.

    Also later, I've been diagnosed as Bipolar, which I think fits better overall. As what I've read on it. DBT works wonder for BPD as it was first developed for that trouble I believe.