I just don't want to lie to myself anymore but I have no idea what the truth is. It's so frightening to think about talking to anyone but my online friends about it even though I'm surrounded by positive people. I think I need to look into therapy and figure things out. (Apologies to Sonic if I turn out to be cishet. )
After a year or so of thinking I was androgeneous I finally decided to explore my alt side and an awful lot of questions came with that. Before, it was kind of in the back of my mind like "haha wouldn't it be so cool if you could dress/act/love like that? oh well" and now it's at the forefront of my mind. I have read some of the literature in the faq on here and quite a lot of it resonates with me. I think I have a lot more exploring to do but it's quite exciting
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I can relate to all these things, you'll find your happiness