negativity about being trans, dysphoria, you know the drill. Egg shit.
wow, so my options really are be a repressed man that hates it or being a transwoman, aren't they? This sucks. Being a guy and not liking it sucks, and being trans doesn't seem great either. So much work, and I'll still be clocked. I'm tall, and big, and manish. I'll feel weird, and fake, and it'll be horrible. My family won't understand. My already small dating pool will be more like a dating tea cup. No one will ever see me as what I wish I was.
But continuing as a man isn't great either. I hate my body. Have for a long time. Maybe I could get away with just doing some things What cis guy doesn't want to get rid of all their body hair, be thin as a twig, use they/them pronouns and where women's clothes after all
I'm just so sad Being trans would be so hard in so many ways I just can't
I really try not to sadpost too much, maybe I'm failing in that.
What are you talking about when you say “Ill still be clocked”. You dont know that, you will not know that until you start to transition physically. You are so certain of something but you havent even tried yet. In other words NO INVESTIGATION NO RIGHT TO SPEAK!!!
Because I'm so big and ugly. I'll look like a man who's trying to be a woman. I'm an overgrown freak. And that's semi okay as a man but it'll be so obvious if I try to be a woman.
I KNOW WHAT I LOOK LIKE AND IT'S NOT HOW WOMEN LOOK. e can't possibly fix my hideous frame. This body is one massive stupid prison.
I mean thank you, that is a helpful framing device :ohnoes:
I know it's scary but like, I have a few friends who are super tall and beforenthey transitioned were "Man-ish" or whatever (we all feel Manish before we transition lol) and they are really happy now. I love being trans even though it Is hard sometimes.
Ok coming back to say one more time because I don't think I emphasized it enough. I love being trans and it's super rad and it's great despite all the difficulties. Like, I definitely would not go back positively and absolutely. It is not a sentence to a hellish life.
Your other comment was great, I was trying to figure out how to reply. I hope I can like being trans at some point (that feels so weird to say right now for multiple reasons)
It's like that at the beginning and tbh it Is still hard. But I'm like pretty af now and I like how I look ans I like dressing fem and honestly being queer af it's just fun and feels good and I NEVER got that as a guy. So yeah also lots of things in life are hard but also fulfilling. Being a guy is also hard. Having to do the man suit isn't trivial.
Also idk I'd you're on there but imo get off trans reddit, it ofc is a source of support but at least for me it triggers my dysphoria so hard.
I promise, whatever your wildest trans dreams are, no matter how unreachable they seem right now — you will reach them. Yes it’s bullshit that we have to put in all this work while cis people don’t, but transition is magical. It doesn’t matter where your starting point is.
I really try not to sadpost too much, maybe I'm failing in that.
This is a place for all posting, sadposting included. We’re here to support you, comrade. Sadpost away and let us bombard you with cat hugs.
negativity about being trans, dysphoria, you know the drill. Egg shit.
wow, so my options really are be a repressed man that hates it or being a transwoman, aren't they? This sucks. Being a guy and not liking it sucks, and being trans doesn't seem great either. So much work, and I'll still be clocked. I'm tall, and big, and manish. I'll feel weird, and fake, and it'll be horrible. My family won't understand. My already small dating pool will be more like a dating tea cup. No one will ever see me as what I wish I was.
But continuing as a man isn't great either. I hate my body. Have for a long time. Maybe I could get away with just doing some things
What cis guy doesn't want to get rid of all their body hair, be thin as a twig, use they/them pronouns and where women's clothes after all 
I'm just so sad
Being trans would be so hard in so many ways I just can't 
I really try not to sadpost too much, maybe I'm failing in that.
What are you talking about when you say “Ill still be clocked”. You dont know that, you will not know that until you start to transition physically. You are so certain of something but you havent even tried yet. In other words NO INVESTIGATION NO RIGHT TO SPEAK!!!
spoiler
Because I'm so big and ugly. I'll look like a man who's trying to be a woman. I'm an overgrown freak. And that's semi okay as a man but it'll be so obvious if I try to be a woman.
I KNOW WHAT I LOOK LIKE AND IT'S NOT HOW WOMEN LOOK. e can't possibly fix my hideous frame. This body is one massive stupid prison.
I mean thank you, that is a helpful framing device :ohnoes:
I can relate to all these things, you'll find your happiness
I know it's scary but like, I have a few friends who are super tall and beforenthey transitioned were "Man-ish" or whatever (we all feel Manish before we transition lol) and they are really happy now. I love being trans even though it Is hard sometimes.
thisssss
Ok coming back to say one more time because I don't think I emphasized it enough. I love being trans and it's super rad and it's great despite all the difficulties. Like, I definitely would not go back positively and absolutely. It is not a sentence to a hellish life.
Your other comment was great, I was trying to figure out how to reply. I hope I can like being trans at some point (that feels so weird to say right now for multiple reasons
)
How can I like it when it seems so hard
It's like that at the beginning and tbh it Is still hard. But I'm like pretty af now and I like how I look ans I like dressing fem and honestly being queer af it's just fun and feels good and I NEVER got that as a guy. So yeah also lots of things in life are hard but also fulfilling. Being a guy is also hard. Having to do the man suit isn't trivial.
Also idk I'd you're on there but imo get off trans reddit, it ofc is a source of support but at least for me it triggers my dysphoria so hard.
I promise, whatever your wildest trans dreams are, no matter how unreachable they seem right now — you will reach them. Yes it’s bullshit that we have to put in all this work while cis people don’t, but transition is magical. It doesn’t matter where your starting point is.
This is a place for all posting, sadposting included. We’re here to support you, comrade. Sadpost away and let us bombard you with cat hugs.