Just finished playing the main storyline of Hades and it makes me… sad. Because I just relate to the story.
If you talked to my pre-teen self I would have been like a Zagreus copy. I wanted to runaway from home. I thought about it almost everyday.
It became a goal in my mind that guided my entire life choices from middle school to graduation. And when I graduated, and was able to get some independence - nothing seemed better. A lot maybe turned for the worse really.
I was and still am stuck. Always felt like I was never given a choice in my own life.
Some things went on the past couple of years, lead to me formally being diagnosed with ADHD (in addition to my previously known anxiety disorders)… tough luck as they say.
It’s been a short while since the diagnosis. I don’t know how to feel about it still. Explains certain things of course but I don’t even know how to proceed.
The therapist said I exhibit some autistic symptoms too.
And now I am here, learning more about myself and yet at the same time not knowing anything at all. Still feeling like that kid that wanted to run away from home but never managed or was able to.
Bombed my driving test, eating sushi to cheer myself up.
Maybe I should fail more driving classes