I've been considering taking some form of therapy to address my mental health for a long time, but aside from the fact that it seems difficult to find a good therapist, especially one that works well with POC, I'm still concerned about the stigma that my mom and family in general seem to have about it. And its so weird. When I was younger I distinctly remember her being a bit more positive about getting treatment in light of how bad the relationship between my brother and me was back then. Like I remember her specifically saying that we shouldn't hesitate to get therapy if it was something we needed.

Now every time she talks about mental health she talks about it just being a matter of having "self-control" and I really hate it. There's been a couple of times where I'll convince her that it isn't that easy to deal with what we're going through, but then a couple weeks later she'll be back on the "self-control" talk.