Basically, what it comes down to is: In my heart of hearts, I just don't believe that a revolution will happen in my lifetime, even if I live to be an old-ass man.

So if I were to just go all-in on hoping for revolution as opposed to anything electoralism-related, in my brain, I'd pretty much be admitting to myself that I personally won't live to see anything get really significantly better, that when I die everything's still gonna suck or be even worse than when I was born.

And I guess I just can't bear to admit that to myself.