So much of it sucks. Goin on dates is fuckin exhausting. Then things eventually don't work out and you have to repeat the process. How people can be bothered is beyond me.
Went on a date a while ago, had a good time, but in the end she either wasn't into or just bad at showing she was. Either way, took the L there. I don't mind the rejection so much though, cos it gives me hope that theres people out there who I'm at least interested in.
Went on a date with a new person today. Was excited to go on it, we got on well over text. Came to in person and I just didn't click with em so well. I dunno. Maybe I'm being too harsh. I couldn't really tell how she felt about the date to be honest. Not sure if it's worth the effort of finding out.
Weirdly I feel like first dates went better if I'd been a whore for them over Instagram first.
i just plan on dying alone at this point, i havent had much opportunity to be around other people i would be romantically or sexually interested in, even in non sexual social situations, and am at this point literally too anxious to even try to meet new people for fear that im not mentally stable enough. the pandemic has turned me into a hermit almost at this point, and i was already a NEET with trouble relating to most people. even anonymous posting causes me significant anxiety sometimes. im just gonna continue to play videogames until i mentally deteriorate to the point where i cant sustain my corporeal existence i guess, as the people i care about slowly die off or drift away or turn into delusional monsters. divine link severed, all hope eradicated, you are a flesh automaton animated by neurotransmitters, etc. etc. life is pointless and existence is objectively meaningless and even full communism can only make it a more comfortable terrifying death trip at best.
well, that's incredibly depressing and I have no idea what to say. get therapy I spose.