Needed a little existential dread this evening while I’m contemplating whether to get high
As someone whose gotten there on accident before, I can tell you that it's eerily similar to nitrous and a giant hit of DMT. You get hit with this bodily wave of dissociation from not breathing and the tryptamine euphoria. You get what feels like hours to come to terms with the fact that you're dying. I'd say this takes away from existential dread. Something in this universe was kind enough to give us a transition between life and death, a time where we can settle our entire lives in our heads before we die.
Narcan is one helluva drug. I've overdosed on fent twice. First was pretty minor, just a normal opiate overdose. 1 narcan and I was back up and running just fine instantly. She said it literally felt like hitting the power button on me, and it really kinda felt the same way. But eventually I relapsed again, and ended up snorting a quarter of the fentiest fent press to ever fent and had a TRUE fent overdose. My partner gave me 3 narcans and I didn't come back. She had to get on top of me and start doing CPR for quite a while for me to wake back up. I couldn't hear during this, but I knew I was totally fucked when I started seeing dead people I dearly missed and shadow people.
Idk, for me at least. I was raised to believe that everyone who wasn’t a born again Christian would spend all eternity in the worst firey torment that is inconceivable for humans to comprehend. I actually lost my mind a bit over it as I was deconverting. I’m past all that now but I kinda worry that a prolonged death experience could bring back all those really awful fears.
Neuroscientists have taken us all for FOOLS for too long and this is the last fucking straw...
Hundreds of thousands of dollars put towards 'residencies' and 'doctorates' every year. Countless young adults conned into believing that they too can 'unlock' the 'mysteries' of the brain if only they pay Mr. John Hopkins or Duke $450,000 over the course of the next 18 years!
simpering neuroscientists: We've just published a new paper detailing laminar organization of neocortical activities during systemic anoxia! It changes EVERYTHING!
normal ''uneducated'' people: and what does that mean exactly?: It means that...when you're dying because you're having a stroke or not breathing or bleeding out or...your brain cells eventually die too...???????????????? GET REAL!
100 updoots and I will make this my Phd thesis once I get in next year
I just want to say I posted this shortly before getting high and watching Barbie (I’ve never seen it)
Barbie seems to be the only one thinking about death at this point in the movie which is a funny coincidence. I love the chaotic and random nature of the universe tbh
Race, culture, sexuality and other parts of identity were left in its original packaging lowering the overall impact and highlighting the heavy handed focus on the gender binary.
Not even halfway through and this is kinda a W review if I’m being honest. It’s fun but reeks of girl boss neoliberalism
This is such a wonderful research to read, but I'm too bad in biochemistry to fully emerge in the joy from this wonderful finding.
