Take the grillpill comrade. Go spend time with people in your community or your family and friends. If you cant figure out what to do - support your local food not bombs and serve up some meals.
I don't have a community. I only get one day off and every one lives at least an hour a away. I don't even care about getting time off or doing anything. Nothing means anything anymore. All I want to do is lie in bed and watch videos on my phone. I don't even have the energy to even cook anything half the time. Even if I wanted to I couldn't go to DSA meetings. I'm too broken and death is the only option
I use to drive to work at 5am and constantly want to
TW: Self harm
Steer full speed into the concrete walls and also end it all constantly
But I eventually left that job, took some time off, did a whole lot of nothing for awhile. Was the first time I had more than three days off in years. It helped a lot, even if I wasn't productive with it. I found a lot less stressful job and didn't have to work so hard but of course it was less pay. But it was enough to get by and that was more important to me. Mental health is important and having bad thoughts just existing to work isn't good. Please try to find somewhere else to work or just stop giving as much of a shit. Letting a job you dislike control you isn't fair and life is too short to be doing this shit.
Would you mind elaborating on this? I feel like I've been at that point with my job for far too long. I've got the money saved up to get by for several months without working, but everyone keeps telling me how terrible it is to quit without another job lined up.
So I guess my questions are:
what was it about your job that you hated?
what sort of work did you end up finding?
how'd you deal with the loss of health insurance?
do you have any regrets?
Feel free to alter or obscure any details for opsec purposes! I just am really curious because it sounds like you've successfully pulled off the plan I've been daydreaming about for years.
Everything almost, the hours sucked and there was constant overtime I didn't want but was highly pressured to take. They dangled promotions in front of me and never ended up doing it but I'd still take on more responsibility. I was the work horse, one of them few people who did their jobs well and wasn't a flake. The bosses would just keep adding tasks and over time it was just nothing but stress. We were always understaffed to the point of exhaustion, the bosses just didn't give a shit.
I got lucky and was able to get into a business that my dying uncle needed help with, extremely fortunate for that but I was doing gig work before I was given that and even gig work was way less stressful but shitt pay.
The health insurance thing was a problem, i went into some debt when I finally went to see a doctor about depression and anxiety but it was worth it. I'm sure there are better ways to do this but at the time I just didn't care, I could hardly pick up a phone to make an appointment it was so bad. But I somehow made it through it.
My only regret was not calling the bosses scumbags and pieces of shit to their faces. Everything else could have been smoother but I genuinely was at my wits end so I'm just happy I made it through it all without doing something extremely bad.
If you just up and quit just lie on your resume for the gap period.. say you were self employed or did gig work there is no way for them to verify this shit, there is no one to call. Yeah it probably is better to have a job lined up but not everyone can even take time off to even do interviews if you work certain hours so it's not mandatory. Lying on resumes is fine, fuck em
Take the grillpill comrade. Go spend time with people in your community or your family and friends. If you cant figure out what to do - support your local food not bombs and serve up some meals.
I don't have a community. I only get one day off and every one lives at least an hour a away. I don't even care about getting time off or doing anything. Nothing means anything anymore. All I want to do is lie in bed and watch videos on my phone. I don't even have the energy to even cook anything half the time. Even if I wanted to I couldn't go to DSA meetings. I'm too broken and death is the only option
We love you comrade
Damn I fucking feel this. I know it's not much consolation but we're on the same wavelength
I use to drive to work at 5am and constantly want to
TW: Self harm
Steer full speed into the concrete walls and also end it all constantly
But I eventually left that job, took some time off, did a whole lot of nothing for awhile. Was the first time I had more than three days off in years. It helped a lot, even if I wasn't productive with it. I found a lot less stressful job and didn't have to work so hard but of course it was less pay. But it was enough to get by and that was more important to me. Mental health is important and having bad thoughts just existing to work isn't good. Please try to find somewhere else to work or just stop giving as much of a shit. Letting a job you dislike control you isn't fair and life is too short to be doing this shit.
Would you mind elaborating on this? I feel like I've been at that point with my job for far too long. I've got the money saved up to get by for several months without working, but everyone keeps telling me how terrible it is to quit without another job lined up.
So I guess my questions are:
Feel free to alter or obscure any details for opsec purposes! I just am really curious because it sounds like you've successfully pulled off the plan I've been daydreaming about for years.
Everything almost, the hours sucked and there was constant overtime I didn't want but was highly pressured to take. They dangled promotions in front of me and never ended up doing it but I'd still take on more responsibility. I was the work horse, one of them few people who did their jobs well and wasn't a flake. The bosses would just keep adding tasks and over time it was just nothing but stress. We were always understaffed to the point of exhaustion, the bosses just didn't give a shit.
I got lucky and was able to get into a business that my dying uncle needed help with, extremely fortunate for that but I was doing gig work before I was given that and even gig work was way less stressful but shitt pay.
The health insurance thing was a problem, i went into some debt when I finally went to see a doctor about depression and anxiety but it was worth it. I'm sure there are better ways to do this but at the time I just didn't care, I could hardly pick up a phone to make an appointment it was so bad. But I somehow made it through it.
My only regret was not calling the bosses scumbags and pieces of shit to their faces. Everything else could have been smoother but I genuinely was at my wits end so I'm just happy I made it through it all without doing something extremely bad.
If you just up and quit just lie on your resume for the gap period.. say you were self employed or did gig work there is no way for them to verify this shit, there is no one to call. Yeah it probably is better to have a job lined up but not everyone can even take time off to even do interviews if you work certain hours so it's not mandatory. Lying on resumes is fine, fuck em
I did it the smart way: 3 months stress leave then going on unemployment.
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There’s a position waiting for you at the DNC, friend. You’re just the type of broken person we look for!
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P.s. you’re not hopeless. We all get to points like this in life.