I want to get into cybersecurity. I am willing to learn about it and do the job effectively. My dumbfuck cornfed manager said they want to make sure i have a "passion" for it. No, i will not think about cybersecurity day and night like i'm in love with it, you dumb fuck middle manager.
I got sorta lucky recently in that a lack of work has allowed me to get paid to produce something I've wanted to make for a while. I've been learning new skills that aren't directly related to my normal work, making decisions, and I had basically full creative control.
The feeling is weird now, normally I'd feel really passionate about it if it was in my own time, but now I only have myself to blame if something goes wrong. People are looking to me to have it done in time. It's a super cool opportunity, but somehow its still sorta ruined by work.
They did a study with kindergarteners where they let them play in a room with lots of different stations with all sorts of toys and art stuff however they wanted for as long asvthey wanted. They documented the amount of time each child spent on each task/game and interviewed them to ask them what their favorite things were. Then the next day they told each child that if they spent time doing the thing they enjoyed the most, or spent the most time on, the previous day they would pay them a quarter per minute they spent doing it. They dodnt force them and the children were still free to do whatever they wanted in the toom. Basically every child stopped doing the task they were paid for. Make if that what you will.
Well, at least that takes some off the pressure of doing what I like.
You got a link? That sounds super interesting.
What the fuck man
I am sorry, I was just trying to say that your experience is super normal and that study showed that even kids feel it. Getting paid to do something saps something from it.
Oh I'm sorry, I meant "what the fuck man" in an existential dread at this seemingly universal reaction.
You're absolutely fine!