• Barabas [he/him]
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    3 years ago

    "Lad culture". What a terrible time to be growing up.

    Took a long time to get to terms with my sexuality after being exposed to shit like this constantly and feeling dirty because of it. At least I wasn't on the receiving end.

      • Barabas [he/him]
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        3 years ago

        Not sure if it was exactly the same. A combination of internalizing the lad culture view of masculinity as what I actually was and being utterly repulsed by it led me to be incredibly repressed. I know that there were people who were very obviously interested in me, but I wouldn't be able to reciprocate on flirting, let alone initiate, or anything like that unless I was shitfaced. And I'd start distancing myself as soon as I got sober.

        Have managed to mostly work through it at least, but I still get bouts of self loathing.