I want to be more mindful about the light I cast myself in. I leave myself little room to grow and it'd be beneficial to adventure my way to better self perception.
I have self esteem issues that have me avoid testing how I'll react to different scenarios. Whatever "wrong" means, I often assume I'll react "wrongly." I constantly shut down chances for myself to experience more things in life. Like when people give ideas for things I can do, I almost always reject them because I assume I'm incapable of doing those ideas.
Is what I mentioned common symptoms of CPTSD? Because I do have it.
According to the book, yes. I'm no expert, but I self diagnosed using this book. And the coping strategies and frameworks inside have been useful for me to understand myself.
Another author that helped was Alice Miller. I'm not a fan of "the body keeps the score" but "the drama of the gifted child" was helpful for me.
Btw, on what she means by gifted, Alice Miller writes,