idfk maybe it's autism, there are just too many signs - does anyone else feel like they're autistic when their high and now the mask has come off? doubt
anyway just travelling by myself for once so I'm vlogging and watching my shit back and I am NOT normal, there is no way other people talk to me and think damnnnnnn he's functional - when was someone gonna tell me I talk like I'm tongue tied, what the fuck??
besides, how can I be autistic if I bullied the autistic kids growing up (the only people who would hang out with me willingly)
I think there is a bit too much going on with me for it to just be anxiety... but pretty sure it is add, maybe combination add and autism
Everyone I tell who I think I have add is like noooo haha you're too cool and successful and I'm like ok, but everything is an uphill battle, and I need drugs to study?? pretty sure my mum has ADD too among other things...
ofc this could all be the long island ice tea talking, shit smashes
besides, how can I be autistic if I bullied the autistic kids growing up (the only people who would hang out with me willingly)
Devon Price talks about this in Unmasking Autism - "I recognized a much-loathed, deeply buried part of myself in Chris, and I hated him for it. I thought I was better than Chris. I could 'keep it together'. . . . I kept my attention pinned to him during every orchestra class after that, picking apart every quality in him that I needed to hide. I began to surround myself even more thoroughly in a camouflage of frostiness and rage."
Very much so. There's a book club on it coming up, but several of us have read it recently and would be (presumably) down to discuss at any time.
Title is funny to me because like a disproportionate of people with ADD/autism I know who are like, the kind of people I tend to be attracted to, are fucking bangin’.
I've gotten that before. You sound a lot like I did in my teens and early 20's tbh, even down to the bullying autistic kids growing up.
People will overlook a lot if you're easy on the eyes. I was called "charmingly quirky" for my autistic mannerisms while less attractive guys were called freaks. People see the success and life you live and think there's no way you did all that while having a disability. It really undermines the amount of work you had to do with your mental health to even achieve those feats.
Never had Long Island ice tea. What does it taste like?
Tell me about it man, I am sure from my observations of other people at work and uni that very few of them have had to struggle with the same things I have. There is too much to get into here right now but I can think of so many examples.
Long island ice tea done properly tastes like soda, you don't even know you're drinking it, but by the time you're done your shit is wrecked. My long island ice tea the other night tasted like 50% spirits, and there was a lot of it. Enough to make these posts and remind myself why I hate getting anything beyond tipsy / lightly buzzed.
