Also consider that they don't want you to live, either. We can fuck them by dying, but we can also fuck them by living. Struggling with this one myself right now because I am just so tired. On the one hand, I'm ready for oblivion. On the other hand, all I've ever wanted is to have a farm. If I can get to be the underground mushroom grandpa who lives in the deepest part of the caves at the end of all of this, I'll hold out for that future.