active networking is the 10th circle of hell,never in my life have I felt so actively disgusted with myself in a social context. how do you do this without the urge to 
or how do you tamp down that urge because oh my god I cannot stomach it, it feels so fucking slimy to do. i can't even do it at events where the sole purpose is networking, my dad pressed me into one and I bailed 15 minutes in after hovering around, it feels so utterly degrading and gross
Does this help?
The only "networking" i know that works is either having family with lots of friends who can get you jobs or building relationships with colleagues you like who are happy to give a good referall for a role, or even finding a solid recruiter who likes you.
Anyway sounds like it sucks bigly, like what are you even supposed to do in that situation?
No CLOS network