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  • Hexhog [any]
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    2 years ago

    I don't understand, why don't I see any of the comment removals in the modlog? Just the ban.

      • Hexhog [any]
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        2 years ago

        Oh, ok. That does make sense unfortunately. So is that you. pootr?? If so... What did happen? (If you don't mind.)

        • 18558355324 [none/use name]
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          2 years ago

          nah, I'm the guy that fucked up the gaming comm discord for a bit. I was blackout, on generic ambien, and on a legal amphetamine, so I don't remember shit. I was told I was just being a massive shithead not like a bigot tho.

          • Hexhog [any]
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            2 years ago

            FWIW, I can identify. I did a bunch of ambien (on it now actually) as well as some benzos and just totally broke. I have no memory of events but apparently I said and did some pretty shocking things to the few people in my life. Lots of regret around that. Anyway... glad you avoided the bigotry! (I did too as it happens). I don't know why I'm saying this. Just... solidarity on blacking out with ambien, I guess. :latam-solidarity:

            • 18558355324 [none/use name]
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              2 years ago

              I don't want to be presumptous, my insomnia is basically untreated now, but that shit can be the devil...not always. can tho. It helps talking to a comrade who has been there. If you ever want an ear, or anything else, I check my account at least once a day. I know people can be healthy with it, but I was snorting it sooooooo lol I hope your relationship with it is healthy or if nothing else a net gain

              • Hexhog [any]
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                2 years ago

                Oh fuck, do I know ambien can be... well, as you aid, the devil. Certainly a double edged sword. It alrady has it's hooks in me but I'm working at slowly pulling them back out.

                TBH, I am kind of struggling rn, but not just with ambien, also a few different gbaergics. I'd like to think I still haven't lost total control and keep them in check, but you know how that goes. I probably shouldn't even be saying this in open/main, but wth.

                • 18558355324 [none/use name]
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                  2 years ago

                  say no more friend, you said enough anyone who knows knows. just know if you need an ear. If it helps, the sleep deprivation is a choice for me that is easier to bear than the chemical tendrils. everyone is different and needs tomake their own value analysis tho. idk about gbaergics, bipolar for me lol. im a human tesla battery! lmao

                  • Hexhog [any]
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                    2 years ago

                    You probably can identify (sounds like you can anyway), my relationship with the chemical tendrils is pretty extensive and intertwined. It take a lot of time and effort to disentangle. If you knew ambien, and if you know alcohol, you know at least a couple gabaergics, just for the record. My condolences or congratulations on being bipolar, I'm not sure how you like to look at it. Personally, I've got AvPD (avoidant PD). I appreciate and thank you for the offer for an ear, I'll remember that and also I extended the same offer to you comrade.

                    edit: rereading this, omg, soooo many typos and shit I'm cringing. I think I better try to get to sleep. Thanks for the conversation comrade. :heart-sickle:

                    • 18558355324 [none/use name]
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                      2 years ago

                      You rock. fuck dudes rock, lets turn it into everyone rocks. idk what the norms are here, but whatever the acceptable version of lets start a ND discord and become homies (cue ICP song) is lets fucking goooooooooo