this sent me down a rabbit hole of whatever the fuck this milieu is putting out, and jesus christ what a bunch of actual, literal garbage. i dabble a little in visual arts and have helped in some theater work and have been around much more committed artists as friends and co-creators. the point being, i have no problem with creative weirdos. not just that, i like them and like being around them.

but, really, i have no patience for self-indulgent drek put out by self-serving careerist pigs, being transgressive for the sake of transgression. or people who are so up-their-own-ass and branded as an artist they try to play off their fucked-upedness as part of some conceptual performance piece. "oh, i didn't literally do what i just did. i'm just playing the role of someone who would do that out in the world."

what a toxic environment.