Seriously, I'm generally a lurker because if I start engaging in stuff I get more and more angry. Like actual feeling it build up in your chest rage and fury. That either turns into bitter resentment that I can't treat these fucking people to the just desserts they have coming to them, or utter defeat and desperation to just fucking cease existing.
I've gone to a therapist on and off for my whole life (cptsd) but I've never had any response. I feel like I need goddamn brain damage to function in this hellscape. I don't know how y'all deal with chuds, libs, and just people in general without fighting back the urge to drive a truck through stuff.
Honest answer there comrade, I can't. There's no possible way for me to stay cool anymore, like, if a lib or chud starts talking shit, I'm really tempted to just go mask off because I don't really have any energy to waste on debating their arguments. Unless they approach me in good faith, but this almost never happens for relatively obvious reasons.
Thing is, you don't have brain damage. You're totally fine, society on the other hand ... well, it has to die in a fucking fire for all I care. Capitalism destroys both the Earth, and our very own humanity, so really, don't feel weird because you aren't a fucking drone, accepting to work yourself until your death, without asking any question. Recognizing the system is fucked, and that it is affecting you in all the ways you can imagine is the first step towards change.