You are loved. You, yes, you, the person reading this. :meow-hug:
Me too man, me too. :meow-hug:
This hits close to home
I wish ADHD didn't make life under capitalism so fucking draining
You do a lot of good work for the site, especially cytube, and everyone here values you.
:meow-hug: i think mostly it's the appearance that i look like i don't give a shit. I've convinced people i'm smart but then they see me give up on projects or not clean my room or whatever so they think i'm doing it on purpose :cri:c
When our turn comes, we will make no excuses for taking a long fuckin' siesta.
I've definitely been in this picture. By the grace of being stupidly tall and relatively coordinated, I got a degree because women's college sports need their athletes to graduate to make up for the horrible graduation rates of the men. All I can say is, I went back to school in my 40s and now am on track to get my doctorate in nursing practice, specializing in mental health and psychiatry. I've been getting all As (except for a B in organic chemistry). I don't know what finally clicked in my brain that's been allowing me to do this. I guess all I can say is don't give up. Hopefully one day it will click for you, too, but even if it doesn't you're still a worthwhile human being.
i'm planning on a degree in psychology (not married to the idea though) but i basically start doubting myself every time, and lately ive noticed that i get anxious & choke up a little when i think about it. Is there something that motivates you specifically?
Not them, but I went for something I enjoyed (geology) and hope to put it into public sector work that's actually beneficial, like the EPA or USGS. Short of becoming a revolutionary, it does feel more like harm reduction sometimes, but I figure if you're helping other people or the Earth you're doing okay.
Mostly because I'm older now and I want to do something meaningful with the rest of my life.
If I didn't live in a place where rent and socialization were both easy, this would still be me.
I can feed myself on 2 dollars a day but I can't eat meta.
I can sleep on a 2" air mattress on the floor but I can't sleep on meta.
Alright, this is going to sound crazy... start going to improv shows and improv jams... take improv classes if they offer them. In the two cities I've spent time in the improv scene they have been overflowing with really decent people with at least tolerable politics and often downright good politics. It's a special kind of awkward when most of the people there have social anxiety and we're all trying to navigate awkward conversations but like... it's a very humanizing, non-aggressive experience versus trying to struggle through that with people who are highly socially skilled. They are warm and welcoming in a very particular way. Honestly the community is like a cult except the only dogma is to laugh at dumb improv even when it isn't funny because you're all there to support each other's growth.
Do NOT get into the stand-up scene. Open mics are awash with right wing "comedians" who get mad at the audience for not laughing at their racist, transphobic bullshit.
