i've sorta felt empty lately. i constantly feel this urge to self-medicate somehow, but i don't have access to weed and i refuse to drink alcohol because hangovers give me anxiety attacks. i don't know how to deal with this feeling of emptiness, since most of the time i just don't feel like interacting with anyone and i don't have much to do with the spare time i have, and i have a lot of it.
for me it's this constant anxiety about literally everything i may or may not have done while drunk. it lasts for a day or two, which makes it so not worth drinking for me. on top of that, i just don't have the money to do it