I remember falling into that pit of trying to numb myself to shit and having multiple sleepless nights after finding just the most awful shit possible as a teenager. In particular I found Encyclopedia Dramatica's "offended" page to be the true test as to whether I was numb enough seeing how far down I could scroll before I had to give up. I never made it to the bottom, but I got desensitized to a lot of stuff in the process. Helps a little bit in healthcare to be able to look at gross wounds. There's something inherently different about an image of a crime scene where someone's been brutalized and an autopsy video where they're providing educational information.

Still sometimes I have to remind myself that I don 't need to go looking for these images just because someone says they're available on the internet.