I’ve read about how it’s typically difficult for adults with autism to remain employed, and I can completely see why. Never been officially diagnosed, but I’m pretty sure it’s a foregone conclusion in the way that I constantly over analyze every action taken by my co-workers and supervisors

So yeah there’s definitely some ND thought here, but I also can’t seem to get past how fake everything feels. And it feels like I have to play along with their little game where they all assume different personalities between the hours of 9-5 instead of being themselves. Because contrary to popular belief, individuals aren’t beneficial to capitalism, drones are

I hate my brain

  • boboblaw [he/him, they/them]
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    2 years ago

    Yeah, I think the problem is that things that are positive for everyone around you aren't necessarily optimal for your individual success. The most useful skills include things like placating/bullshitting the bosses, and throwing your peers under the bus when it serves.

    Modern management tactics like stack ranking produce the worst versions of this. In such situations, the most beneficial move may be to sabotage your peers. Helping everyone else would simply hurt your own chances.

    • GalaxyBrain [they/them]
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      2 years ago

      That's fair. I've avoided jobs that I have to deal with thst crap. As a consequence, I'm poor.

      • boboblaw [he/him, they/them]
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        2 years ago

        Same. I'm currently trying to figure out how little money I can afford to make just so I can have a drama-free work life. Faking enthusiasm and making small talk with supervisors/managers can be so tiring, and I hate how important it is even when not overtly part of the job duties.

        The current trend of open floor plan offices is a nightmare too. I feel like I have to be constantly on guard, lest I say something that gets me branded "not a team player".