unironically i do feel like i 'fake it' because i have to modulate so much in order for even doctors to take me seriously about an event that undeniably happened and has records for hospital visits. i hate having to tone myself down or tone myself up when im freaking out. lets not even get into the psychological impact of feeling like you have imposter syndrome over extreme violence being inflicted on you
unironically i do feel like i 'fake it' because i have to modulate so much in order for even doctors to take me seriously about an event that undeniably happened and has records for hospital visits. i hate having to tone myself down or tone myself up when im freaking out. lets not even get into the psychological impact of feeling like you have imposter syndrome over extreme violence being inflicted on you
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oh yeah the disassociation is really up there and is multifaceted. my brain is swiss cheese, i have resigned my life to bimbodom :ohnoes: