Idk why I keep checking the covid death toll on the CDC website. I know that 200,000 deaths will be reached soon, and nothing will happen. It will make absolutely no difference, and yet I keep checking. Can anyone make sense of this?
it's past 203K confirmed cases now and the actual total deaths are probably creeping close to 300K
Yeah, I don't know why the Worldometer and CDC numbers don't match. I've been using the CDC numbers instead, pretty arbitrarily. But then the question remains, why do I feel like I need to keep checking for when that first 1 rolls over to a 2? Nothing will change, we'll go on as we've been doing as people keep on dying, but for some reason I feel like I need to see it?
does cdc count puerto rican numbers? that wouldn't explain the entire discrepancy but it would explain some.
So many have died and no one is mourning them. Every day our leaders loosen restrictions and downplay the severity of the virus. It's mass death without respect and without closure. So maybe part of you wants to watch that number to see that it's real, to see that at least one person cares - yourself.
Uh, now I'm crying, so I guess you hit the nail on the head. Seriously, thanks. It's been bothering me--why am I doing this? But that made sense, deep down. So now I feel worse, but also better? Thanks again, I feel like I really needed an answer to this.
It happened today. I looked at the numbers and really let myself feel what such a massive death toll feels like. Thanks for giving me some clarity about my motivations, I think it helped me to be prepared for what I needed emotionally today.