all my guy friends are queer lol. we're affectionate but i'm basically an unusually reserved person. couldn't really say why that is, i just had a socially isolated adolescence and i've never fully gotten past that frame of mind.
if i may fully recline on the divan: for me the pain of vulnerability with my loved ones isn't that my feelings will be dismissed or belittled, but that i don't have the ability to make myself really understood. like sincere support from someone who i don't think really gets what i'm saying feels almost as bad as actual rejection. which is of course absurd and unhealthy, but i mostly can't overcome it.
all my guy friends are queer lol. we're affectionate but i'm basically an unusually reserved person. couldn't really say why that is, i just had a socially isolated adolescence and i've never fully gotten past that frame of mind.
if i may fully recline on the divan: for me the pain of vulnerability with my loved ones isn't that my feelings will be dismissed or belittled, but that i don't have the ability to make myself really understood. like sincere support from someone who i don't think really gets what i'm saying feels almost as bad as actual rejection. which is of course absurd and unhealthy, but i mostly can't overcome it.