I've acted like a cishet man for so long I don't know how to stop

I feel like almost every social interaction I have nowadays except with really close friends is just a complete reflex to be this fake guy I made up

It's especially bad when I talk to men so I'm also mostly avoiding all my male friends but obviously I would rather not do this

I don't even know who I am anymore

  • Changeling [it/its]
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    1 year ago

    Yeah I’m still working on not reflexively doing the various “sup bro” handshakes that I’ve drilled into my muscles over the years.

    • GaveUp [she/her]
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      1 year ago

      This is the worst, I keep telling myself that I'm going to just tell men that I don't do daps or handshakes anymore when they start but I can't bring myself to do all that and be so dramatic so I just spend the 2 seconds to dap them up

      • Changeling [it/its]
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        1 year ago

        Yeah I feel you. It grosses my partner out when I go “bro mode” as they call it. Not because there’s anything wrong with doing it, just that they see how much of well-oiled facade it is for me.