It took me more than half a year after realizing I was trans because I was thinking that since I barely had gender dysphoria, my life might be happier living as male and cis presenting than losing all that privilege and transitioning
Of course, the dysphoria got worse exponentially after realizing and that was no longer an option
I feel kinda dumb for thinking I might've been an exception since it seems like this happens to every trans person that used to not have that much dysphoria
Deciding that you're going to transition, whatever that means to you, is as big of a thing as recognizing and accepting that you're trans.
I sat around for a long time thinking the same thing; sure, I don't love being a guy, but it's hard being trans. Maybe I could just live with it, and be a useful ally to Real Trans People™
But starting HRT has made such a difference, I know it was the right step for me.
Super happy for you, and I hope that transition helps you find joy