I was led to believe by all the TV sitcoms of the 80s that I'd wake up one day in my 40s, everything would feel totally different, and then I'd take long walks and be thoughtful about stuff, buy an overpriced motorcycle and dye my hair badly. I'm solidly into my 40s and I just worry about climate collapse, becoming homeless, and my partner's health. I honestly wish that becoming less attractive was something worth worrying about.
Lol I am in a similar space. I only lol because I spent an hour talking to my boss about this shit yesterday while he just nodded along. I felt so embarrassed and, well, not very clear headed for potentially putting my head on a chopping block and offering up my anxieties to my boss. He ain’t a bad dude and it’s a state job, but it just came out.
I mentioned a sort of mid life crisis but all i articulated was climate anxiety, childcare and concerns for the future of todays youth, healthcare, housing, and the workplace.
Midlife crisis is not wanting to be tied to wage for 40hrs a week to a job that you drive to while the planet burns and the bad guys stay winning, and not wanting to have your kid kicked off of medicaid rolls to where a routine visit to the doctor is denied to a 9yo for lack of medical insurance. Just par for the course these days