This isnt a crisis post btw, I have care scheduled very soon
I highly suspect i have BPD and i just want to know if it ever gets better or easier to live with? 4 days ago i felt stable and now I'm back to completely losing my mind and cant reel it back in
Not even sure whats real or not about my emotions at this point other than being trans
In my long mental health journey, I was diagnosed at first with BPD when I was around 20 years old, mostly because (I suspect) I was mutilating, had feeling of emptiness/death and was kinda having "clivage" in my relationship.(Where I was super into someone until I had my fill then vanished from the surface of the earth.)
I read a lot on it, took note of when some behaviors happened and practiced some kind of self-crit. But mostly, aging dulled the strongest feeling.
Also later, I've been diagnosed as Bipolar, which I think fits better overall. As what I've read on it. DBT works wonder for BPD as it was first developed for that trouble I believe.