This isnt a crisis post btw, I have care scheduled very soon

I highly suspect i have BPD and i just want to know if it ever gets better or easier to live with? 4 days ago i felt stable and now I'm back to completely losing my mind and cant reel it back in

Not even sure whats real or not about my emotions at this point other than being trans

  • morte [she/her]
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    1 year ago

    But also, unrelated to dating

    cw: discussion of suicide

    I got really drunk and couldnt handle my emotions and begged a very close friend of mine to take my life. Feels like im just a parasite on the people around me and their emotions. I'm like a happiness vampire

    • GaveUp [she/her]
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      1 year ago

      If they're a very close friend I'm sure you have lots to offer them that has made you two become that close

      But definitely therapy in case they may get overwhelmed in the future. I've lost a few friends during a period where my then therapist was awful and unhelpful so I leaned on my friends too much

      • morte [she/her]
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        1 year ago

        I hope so. They are a very kind person and very dear to me.

        Yeah. Therapy is a major priority for me rn. Its been tough finding a therapist that takes my insurance and treats my issues and is close enough for me to get to regularly