I have pretty much given up on being social at all any more because of how much I seem to resist it, even though I WANT to go out and do things and make more friends and be consistent. But it's just so exhausting, I dissociate when I'm out and about unless I'm drunk, I get super anxious about what to talk about, etc etc. I've been going to punk and metal shows for like 20+ years but now I pretty much have resigned myself to the fact that I just am not gonna go anymore because I just disappoint myself again and again after I tell myself I wanna go, but then when it comes down to it I figure out a way to just avoid it. And that makes me sad.
I'm AuDHD, and currently exploring meds. Has anyone noticed an impoved ability to socialize/go out in public when medicated?
Yeah I figure the autism aspect can only moderate things so much lol. But when I was younger and up until like 6-7 years ago I was much, much more motivated to be social, and even more so as a teen and in my early/mid twenties. I know part of my experience is just getting older but I have trouble even wanting to go outside; I think my executive function machine is just completely busted from a variety of factors lol. Do you feel like the vyvanse has mostly helped with slowing down/mindfulness, maybe?
It has, but like any medication it’ll take some time for it to settle in and then find the right dosage. Too much gives you the stereotypical result of hyper focusing to finish that overdue assignment but seems to make Autism symptoms worse with social interactions. The perfect dose will allow you to do both in a way that feels natural