I have pretty much given up on being social at all any more because of how much I seem to resist it, even though I WANT to go out and do things and make more friends and be consistent. But it's just so exhausting, I dissociate when I'm out and about unless I'm drunk, I get super anxious about what to talk about, etc etc. I've been going to punk and metal shows for like 20+ years but now I pretty much have resigned myself to the fact that I just am not gonna go anymore because I just disappoint myself again and again after I tell myself I wanna go, but then when it comes down to it I figure out a way to just avoid it. And that makes me sad.
I'm AuDHD, and currently exploring meds. Has anyone noticed an impoved ability to socialize/go out in public when medicated?
Oh dang, that part about hyper fixation is real. I will research and research about a few different subjects and get really excited to do them (sewing, darning, bike camping, etc) and I may just do it once or not at all. It's like I find the research satisfying enough to not nees to do it. Like i get lil dopamine hits from daydreaming about it without needing to execute a real world plan which requires dealing with all the nitty gritty steps that make the activity overwhelming. I'd love yo.just skip to the "just do it" part.
I scroll on my phone all day long, too. Sometimes for 9+ hours on weekends, it's really embarrassing :/ it would be a god send to be able to put it down and even just focus on movies more often or read at the very least
Also, if you just enjoy the research part, where's the harm in that?
As far as the phone: me too. Removing apps can help. Put it out of your field of view. Stuff like that. Still it's super hard
The research part is fun, but it's the part where I get bummed out about not actually doing the thing that's the problem. I hope if I start stimulants, I can have the best of both worlds! I'm glad that it seems to have helped you so much