I am a lazy failure who can't do anything. Basic shit I consistently just... don't do. Its embarrassing. I don't even want to list all of it. I have hobby stuff I've wanted to for years that I've just never gotten set up. Homework? More like I'm not fucking doing that. I've been wanting to take steps for months to get myself on hormones and get clothes but have I done them? No? Of course not, because I'm fucking lazy. All I do is rot. Its been this way for a long time, I can't even remember when the last time I didn't struggle with this. And it doesn't feel like its getting better. If it really is my autism I'm not sure how it ever can get better.
Thank you So much suffering and regret.
I will look into adhd. I'll try to be kind to myself, it is difficult.
Edit: also this forum isn't the worst place to start. User ReadFanon has written great posts and comments about ADHD and AuDHD, which I found very helpful.
Seconded! I have learned so much about AuDHD from ReadFanon.