I ended up (allegedly) picking up some heat and i stopped dropping acid and shit right

i used to average (allegedly) 750+ ugs every two weeks and that was after i cut back from 1mg + a week when i was going hard

i want to be responsible but everyone i ask for advice on curbing wanting to keep up with how things were are complete fucking fiends

i told someone and they pretty much blew past how i said im trying to cut back and after (allegedly) the heat and the rounds im flat broke too

part of me is like ok these people want me dead (system, chuds, etc) and while cutting back on reasons for them fucking with me sounds good for prevention, they shoot first and i always have this heat so it would be open and shut like how they did everyone they keep fucking with and killing

im at these protests so you already know how they do people like that so i cant just have (allegedly) a sheet and weed and heat you know what i mean?

either way idk if you get me and have some not crackhead advice thats cool but 2020 is kicking my shit in so you already know

also fuck that orange cheeto can this scum piece of shit die already

  • Burn1 [he/him]
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    4 years ago

    Chill on the L man thats gotta be fucking w your head. I love psychs too but do them 1-2 times a year, I get too deep in my head when I'm tripping all the time. I know its a time where we want to escape and forget but you gotta get grounded or you'll just keep fading away. Find something that gives u meaning. Even if its little things the present moment always contains beauty. If u can, give yourself a day to take care of yourself--eat good, long shower/bath, pet an animal, watch a (light) movie or show. We can't be on the grind 24/7 we gotta find a balance. I've been strung out on uppers for months straight, dabbled with heroin, i know its tough but its possible to live better. Give urself the permission to enjoy a day and gather your thoughts. Good luck <3