You are not Winston. You are not in the Party. You are a prole. The party doesn't give a shit about what you think, do or say. The only exception is if you pose a meaningful threat to the Party. In which case, the Republican-Democrat Party, the Capitalist Party of the United States of America will threaten you, disappear you, etc, etc, just like they have done to every threat in American history.
I hate 1984. The only good part is the appendix because Orwell couldn't fit his rapey misogynist tropes there. Not to be a snowflake but high-schoolers shouldn't have to read a character having a r*pe fantasy about a woman he doesn't know.