sigh told a friend/comrade that I have a crush on them and it didn't go well. we'd been getting closer over the last couple of months and they started touching me more so I thought odds were good.
I tried to broach the subject in person but took a kind of roundabout path by bringing up how we were getting closer, how intimate touch is for me, etc, and they gave me a kind of panicked look and a total non-answer in response when I asked about how they were feeling.
but they were fairly drunk and tired and they fell asleep pretty shortly afterwards so I figured one of two things had happened - either they wanted to say no but weren't comfortable doing that or they misunderstood what I was trying to say and took my comments as a complaint. so I sent them a text clarifying that I was saying I had a crush on them while making it clear that the friendship was more important to me and that there was no pressure to respond at all. so naturally, they didn't respond (which is fine) and I'm feeling kind of down about the whole thing.
this is the first time I've been interested in a particular person since I started transitioning almost two years ago and it was pretty rough to work up the nerves to broach the subject in the first place (what if I'm not enough of a woman for them and other dysphoria things) so it feels crappy but at least it will be easier to try again in the future.
Hang in there comrade, and be patient! feelings can be a war of attrition.
And if they don't respond or cannot reciprocate your feelings, do not despair! Be proud that you took a risk and let yourself feel feelings for someone again. That's a big, difficult step and I'm proud you took it. As you said, it makes the next opportunity less scary.
sigh told a friend/comrade that I have a crush on them and it didn't go well. we'd been getting closer over the last couple of months and they started touching me more so I thought odds were good.
I tried to broach the subject in person but took a kind of roundabout path by bringing up how we were getting closer, how intimate touch is for me, etc, and they gave me a kind of panicked look and a total non-answer in response when I asked about how they were feeling.
but they were fairly drunk and tired and they fell asleep pretty shortly afterwards so I figured one of two things had happened - either they wanted to say no but weren't comfortable doing that or they misunderstood what I was trying to say and took my comments as a complaint. so I sent them a text clarifying that I was saying I had a crush on them while making it clear that the friendship was more important to me and that there was no pressure to respond at all. so naturally, they didn't respond (which is fine) and I'm feeling kind of down about the whole thing.
this is the first time I've been interested in a particular person since I started transitioning almost two years ago and it was pretty rough to work up the nerves to broach the subject in the first place (what if I'm not enough of a woman for them and other dysphoria things) so it feels crappy but at least it will be easier to try again in the future.
sigh mope, mope, mope
Hang in there comrade, and be patient! feelings can be a war of attrition.
And if they don't respond or cannot reciprocate your feelings, do not despair! Be proud that you took a risk and let yourself feel feelings for someone again. That's a big, difficult step and I'm proud you took it. As you said, it makes the next opportunity less scary.