I left the country on suprise work orders 2 weeks in and smothered the connection I had with my friend turned partner in the crib.
Took three months of further anguish and very limited contact to rip the bandaid off.
I have learned nothing from this experience and am about to rebound.
What's up with youse?
You've gotta do that cliche anime breakup shit where you kick a rock around a parking lot and go stare out over some water. It's my favorite part.
I'm watching some PBS Space Time videos. Specifically the playlist about neutron stars. They seem to get overlooked in popular media, being figuratively outshined by their more glamourous black hole siblings. But there's something so wild and wonderful about a star that's effectively a single massive atom.
Also, in physics there's a concept called the Schwarzschild radius. The short version is that if you pack an amount of mass into a space smaller than that radius for that given mass, you've created a black hole. Now here's the crazy part: if the estimated amount of mass in the universe is put into that equation, the Schwarzschild radius is about three times larger than the estimated size of our universe. In other words, we may be living on the interior of a black hole, and that black hole may have been created by a collapsing star in a parent universe. Of course there's no way to test this, so it's not remotely a scientific theory, but more of a "cool idea while high" thing. And it's mathematically fun to think about.
I don't remember the concepts or the math but what I do remember is that the answer to the issue is that the observation is consistent with living inside a time reversed black hole - i.e. big bang = white hole
Neutrino stars, pulsars and magnetars are my favourite entities. A ball the size of a city with the mass of a star, spinning at 500 rounds per second, emitting radiation that would fry anything. It’s so unbelievably badass.
The size of our universe is far from certain, as I understand it. The observable universe is about 93 billion light-years but the entire thing could be thousands or even infinite.
Favorite; horror movie, animated tv show, unhealthy comfort food? Go
i am not in a relationship and haven't been. ever. i thought if i would be happy on my own it would sort of happen automatically, but now im just 'good' at being by myself
You've probably learned things from it. It might take time to realise, but you most likely did.
Like recognising a bad relationship and how to break it up.
if it was genuinely bad then a (bittersweet) congrats. nuffin wrong with a little rebound though it's never really worked for me personally (errbody different). what were the core issues? (don't have to answer if u don't feel like it)
Besides distance friction, I had options in a lot of ways that she didn't. Was never all that communicative over text, which became a critical issue when I flew out. Was also pretty racist against South Asians.
all legit but that last one especially is a real doozy lol, racism is a tough one to work with
You probably made the best possible decision, considering the situation. I unfortunately had the displeasure of seeing a guy enter multiple relationships with different women, even though he acknowledged there were multiple red flags even before he started dating them. In one instance, he literally left a fucking 24 hour timer so he could know when to stop ghosting her and actually answer the message. Totally wild shit. In the end, he hurt himself and others emotionally, when he could have just said "no" at the beginning, and spared everyone a lot of nerves and tears.
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