so horrifically in touch with everything I'm bad at, every way I just do not fit what other people expect

omori-miserable

tell me you know that feel, please

  • stigsbandit34z [they/them]
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    5 hours ago

    Highly, highly relate. It feels like I’m always searching to find someone who feels this way. Like in the context of social events, I will always be the one person at the event trying to find the other person (or people) who are also looking as lost as myself. But I truly never can

    This thought has been there as early as elementary school basketball tryouts and persisted throughout the entirety of my pathetic existence

    • dustbunnies [she/her, comrade/them]
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      4 hours ago

      I will always be the one person at the event trying to find the other person (or people) who are also looking as lost as myself

      !!! so much this. I definitely try to find the other leftover weirdos to befriend, and it is not necessarily a reliable strategy, but it's better than hanging with the normies

      it's why I'll probably never entirely give up cigarettes – they're just too useful as a social crutch, which I desperately need

      • Red_Eclipse [she/her]
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        3 hours ago

        basically the only way I have made friends in my life is spotting the other weirdos and being like hiiii i'm weird too let's be friends :)

        and it's worked so far lol

        • dustbunnies [she/her, comrade/them]
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          2 hours ago

          do not recommend, I'm a genuine freak who can take them or leave them, I've fucked around with them for decades but have never been a daily smoker, which is exceedingly rare. they ruin most people's lives.

          weed is just as good a crutch and less horrifically harmful

  • un_mask_me [any]
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    6 hours ago

    I understand the feeling of not fitting into other's expectations, but I still haven't been able to find a place to get tested so I can't share that exact experience. I'm so sorry it's making you feel worse.

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    • dustbunnies [she/her, comrade/them]
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      6 hours ago

      meow-hug thank you ❤️❤️❤️

      I'd share the link for the person I went to, who is totally online but I think only for patients in Ohio, so probably not helpful to you

      if you (or anyone else reading this) are in Ohio and would like the info, please DM me, I'm happy to share.

      • un_mask_me [any]
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        6 hours ago

        I really hope it gets better for you somehow.

        Ugh, yeah I'm not in OH but thank you. Do you mind sharing how you went about finding them? Like was it a complicated process?