dustbunnies [she/her, comrade/them]

elder millennial late-dx AuDHD cis bi married parent of trans kid

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Joined 2 months ago
Cake day: October 18th, 2024
  • dustbunnies [she/her, comrade/them]toSoviet•Joseph Stalin - New General Megathread for the 18th-22th December 2024
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    21 hours ago

    have you ever tried microdosing LSD?

    I tried it a couple years ago, before getting diagnosed with either ADHD or autism, and I had some of my best, most confident days during that period.

    silly example

    I like bright, colorful clothes and makeup, but don't often wear them because I like not drawing attention in public more than I like wearing bright things.

    the day after a microdose day, I was getting dressed so I could go grocery shopping, and I decided to wear my bright yellow shirt and the shimmery eyeshadow that matches, because it suddenly occurred to me that anyone who would be weird to me about what I was wearing was committing a much greater social faux pas than wearing unusually bright colors.

    I'm not an asshole for dressing this way, they're assholes for being mean about it, is an obvious thought to many people, and probably was a thing I had even said to other people about the way they dress, but I didn't really know deep down that it applied to me too, if that makes sense. suddenly, I knew it was true, it was the most obvious thing in the world.

    it sounds like maybe that's the genre of thought-shifting you're looking for? hopefully you have better connections for finding it than I do! it was total chance that it happened for me the first time, and idk where to even begin to find it again.

    brief how-to

    I used the guides on /r/microdosing to do it – dissolved tabs in a specific quantity distilled water, carefully measuring drops, etc.

    since acid doses are usually made by dropping the liquid onto a piece of paper/whatever, the concentration of the drug will often not be homogenous across the square of paper, so cutting that paper it into tiny pieces will result in many small doses of varying strength.

    putting your tabs or sugar cubes or whatever into water will dissolve the LSD into the water, and a gentle shake before dispensing your microdose will result in consistent quantities of drug per dose.

  • dustbunnies [she/her, comrade/them]toSoviet•Joseph Stalin - New General Megathread for the 18th-22th December 2024
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    21 hours ago

    sorry, didn't mean to imply that was your primary reputation, it's certainly not the first thing I think of when I think of you

    what comes to mind for me?

    Vegan Cheese Sauce 😂 you're the Recipe Guy in my head.

    you also seem like a great friend – the way you talk about your friends and coworkers gives the impression of deep care. you seem like the kind of person who pays attention to little things people mention and uses that knowledge to better care for them.

    cuddle hopefully many years before anyone is concerned with what to put on your tombstone.

  • dustbunnies [she/her, comrade/them]toSoviet•Joseph Stalin - New General Megathread for the 18th-22th December 2024
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    2 days ago

    idk what you're talking about either, except maybe poking at your wounds and trying to compare them to others? cuddle suffering is suffering, we don't have to rank it

    loss talk

    my oldest sister died suddenly when I was 18, and it really shook my ideas about the world. good people can literally just drop dead from a brain aneurysm that nobody saw coming, and the loss can wreck a family.

    I've lost friends to car accidents, drugs, and violence. the world can be a dark and terrible place.

    there are people here who would miss you if you suddenly disappeared ❤️ be careful out there.

  • dustbunnies [she/her, comrade/them]todisabled•Disabled Community Megathread December 16th — December 22nd
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    2 days ago

    imho, you only get to say "it could be so much worse!" about your own situation or the situation of a friend who has asked for comfort

    otherwise, you need to stfu, because you don't know all the surrounding circumstances in a person's life, and you obviously haven't come to terms with the fact that what can seem bearable in one situation is absolutely intolerable in others.

    all of that is just to say that you should completely disregard those people; they lack intelligence, sense, and empathy, and this lack makes their opinions and thoughts utterly meaningless.

  • dustbunnies [she/her, comrade/them]toSoviet•Joseph Stalin - New General Megathread for the 18th-22th December 2024
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    2 days ago

    genuinely astounded that people here fuck mutual_aid posters around like this

    hopefully this behavior is against the rules, and once that is made known to comrades posting there for help, the assholes doing this will get reported and banned

    it's one thing to enthusiastically say you'll help a person and then realize that you don't actually have the money for it – which bleeding heart amongst us hasn't been there or just barely avoided it by checking the bank before posting 😞 been there and done that myself

    it's something entirely different to get someone's personal info, repeatedly promise help, sometimes publicly enough to discourage other assistance, and then just fucking ghost them.

    that is fucked up. if you've done that, you should be ashamed of yourself, and you should go donate every fucking cent you can spare right fucking now.

  • dustbunnies [she/her, comrade/them]tochat•Could I make a suggestion - please don't make offers of help to people on here that you have no intention of following through on.
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    2 days ago

    And if you're broadcasting your offer of help in the thread, it's probably stopping other people from helping

    concern about this is why I've never mentioned helping anyone in their threads

    I know this isn't why you made this post, but I'm really sorry I haven't been able to help you more. I worry about you often.

    anyone reading this considering helping OP, please do. though they'd deserve our help even if they weren't, they're a genuinely lovely person who has been dealt a horrifyingly bad hand by life and is forced to live in severe poverty to get any government assistance, without which they would literally die.

    the few gift cards I've been able to send here and there for groceries made a real difference, and I know it would make a huge difference if you sent one, too.