First off i hate the fact that i share things in common with elon musk namely doing ketamine and liking dune
But goddamn that trip was fucking intense im not even totally sure what i witnessed it was complete madness i took maybe 300 mg i think? I dont know if thats a lot but it was a big ol pile of k on my hand and boy did it burn. I put on the dune soundtrack turned on the shower started to dissociate rapidly and then bam! Chaos. I dont even know how to describe it. A state of existence completely orthogonal to human rationality. There wasnt a sense of oneness of the universe or anything, it was more like the skin of reality peeled back to reveal something completely and utterly incomprehensible. A place where definitions and descriptions have no meaning, complete conceptual fluidity. It was transcendent and terrifying. There was no self, no time, no memory of who i was before, only the pounding fall of water, dune, and the screaming breakbeat of my subconscious. I died at least once. Came to staring at my hands and crawled out of the bathtub like the girl from the grudge. All i could say for 30 minutes was holy shit
The more i try to remember the less i understand
10/10 probably going to give ketamine a break for now
Woah, sick. The "skin of reality peeled back" strongly reminded me of a time i did two bottles of dxm syrup and the visual surfaces of the walls and objects in the room i was in began to fall away, revealing the underlying machinery/circuitry that powers reality, or something like that. There were huge bundles of pulsating cables and these arrays of rotating, interlocking gyroscopes, like four-dimensional cogs rotating in both directions and into and out of each other all at once. My friend was saying "darth, DARTH" (except my name) and I was thinking "what is that. what is a darth. Sounds familliar. Wait, is that what i am?" And then i realized i was looking down at my own body from above and snapped back into it. Dissociatives are really somethin'.
Fascinating! Yeah theyre wild. The trip before this i saw... something gestating in the psyche of my city and then it was WITHIN me and i saw its wings unfurling beneath my skin. Then i started whisper screaming hellraiser and event horizon quotes. And when i came back i wasnt sure if i was me or something else wearing my skin